Indecision

I had a great day today with my gals. Yay for shopping! Yay for cheesecake, and yay for girl time. :-) This year in Boston has been so much better for me than last year. But it's kind of bittersweet. I'll be finishing my grad program in May as long as nothing goes wrong, and I have to start thinking about getting a job. I've been planning to move back to North Carolina since last year, but now that I've started to make a life for myself here in Boston that I actually enjoy, I'm starting to wonder if moving is really what I want.

The practical side of me knows that I'm not going to make very much money as an adjunct, no matter where I live. But trying to support myself on that kind of salary while living here and paying off my loans doesn't sound all that glamorous. But at the same time, I'm not so sure that being practical at the age of twenty-four is absolutely necessary. I'm typically the kind of girl who plays it safe. I take risks, but only when I've calculated the possible outcomes...and let's face it: that's BORING.

Yet I can't deny the pull that I still feel towards North Carolina. When I was home over Christmas break I was reminded just how pretty it is, and how gorgeous the freakin weather is. I love being able to walk outside wearing shorts in January, and I would really like to be close to my family again. While I can see myself living it up downtown in Boston, I can also see myself in an apartment somewhere in NC with a dog. Ha, but I suppose those two things aren't mutually exclusive. I guess I also have to consider that most of the friends I've made aren't going to be here though...

Argh. I don't know what I want.